I finally sent that email out. I think I better not think too much. Wondering how the reader will feel/how the reader will respond... keep telling myself it doesnt matter anymore. I have done my part in sending out the email and that's it. It's a done deal. DONE!! 不要去想了啦！！

I just thought I would like to list down what are the significant events that happened over the past 6 years in our relationship.

Year 1 - 2005

I said "YES!" not to a proposal but to a relationship that is for the long run. Not to get into a relationship to try things out, but to get into a relationship to make sure we really put our effort into making things work. That was after a couple of weeks of thinking and praying on both sides. When we head to Lower Pierce Reservoir to talk, I said yes! Soon after that I left for Australia to finish the rest of my Bachelor degree. That's when we spent 10 months away in two different continents (我们相各两地得事侯)。Btw, our relationship was under wraps...

Year 2 - 2006

I came back and was looking for a job while he was about to finish his NS and start his Theological studies in TCA College. We were still trying to find our footing in this relationship and we quarreled alot for a "new" couple. Our relationship was still under wraps until my mum finally found out around Aug and asked me to break up with him - because of his race issues. She threatens to chase me out of the house if I am still going to be with him. We were still together but was under even more wraps. 这时后，以为没什么大不了得。。。就不跟妈妈讲就可以了。。。 可是我错了。。。

Year 3 - 2007

The relationship was under bubble wraps... finally around the same time as last year, mum found out that all along I was still together with him. This time she gave me a time frame of 3 months to break up with him. Again threatens to chase me outta the house (she was darn serious), disown me, not leave an inheritance for me. And I tot she was racist... I thought she was being the most unreasonable person in this entire universe, I tot she never tried to understand how much I want to be with Sashi. And how much Sashi loves me. She told my aunt (who brought me up since I was young), that she is NOT going to attend my wedding and is demanding that everyone in the family do not attend as well. In Nov 2007, with the help of Ps Wilson, we decided to cool off our relationship and concentrate on our lives with God and also work on our relationship with our family. Ultimately, if we want to get married, we want both our parents blessings. We gave each other no more than 1.5 years time frame. There was a mutual agreement that during this 1.5 years, if so, that we find out that there is someone that we like or find him/her to be more suitable, we'd promised to tell each other. Times were tough and this was how this blog was set up, we used to co-blog the other one... 这时侯得我们是份开的。。。但我们有说， 如果有使当的人的话， 要跟对仿说。没相到。。。

(WOW.... 好长也好痛的一断日子哦。。。)

Year 4 - 2008

The year of cooling off has gone by while we still know that we love each other, there's were hidden problems that we did not communicate about. We were like we were not in a relationship but some parts of it we were acting like as if we are a couple. We never knew what were the hidden problems until much later in the next year. 没相到的事，两人都没说。。。 发生了的事请都静静得藏在心里。。。不说的愿因是不敢说出来吧。。。怕伤害到对仿。。。He finally told his dad about our relationship before watchnight service in 2008. He's dad did not object - which is over and above what was expected of his reactions. I told my mum about it and slowly and surely, she began to accept him and I began to understand the "racist issues" that my mum had. I thank God for opening my heart and my eyes to see beyond wad was said, and to see the heart of a mother and the love she has for her children.

Year 5 - 2009

I couldnt continue living a lie and I remembered the words of the agreement, that if so that there would be someone else... 说不出口的话，还是得说出来。。。I confessed finally and I was taken aback by what was told to me. 着么可能？？？这重事为什么会发生在我的身上呢？？ We chose to stuck by each other despite what happened and work through our differences. Yes, by God's grace we stuck by each other... And it was a battle, but an uphill to greater things for each other. Greater understanding of each other, greater love, greater ways of making our relationship work. I must say, since then, our relationship has never been better. It's like we are almost enjoying the fruits of our labour for those past years. We both have grown, and grown to love each other more and more. A-SASHI-MEE 长大了。成熟了。Mum has began to love him the way I do. Cooking for him, asking him to join in for family function. The family has seen him more and more. He is already part of the family. I am so proud of my mum! I so thank God for everything that has happened...

Year 6 - 2010

我们要结婚！！I said "YES!!" this time it was to the PROPOSAL. the 5 candles that represent the years we were together. The things we went through over the years. The song he sang "My girl". The kneeling on one knee. That day has finally come and I said YES! Life is different from then on. He also started his internship and I started to get involve in TCC's Christmas production. We finally moved over to TCC and I can see.. his whole spirit is so much better, his has his calling refired, beliefs are reinforced. Thank God. Days definitely looked brighter...

Year 7 - 2011

9th Jan 2011 and we spend the day in church, lunch with family, naps at home, dinner at Prata House and watch Man U vs Liverpool. Though it feels just like any normal sunday, I had a good time with him. This is probably the last time we are "celebrating" our Anniversary. The years on, it'd be a different Anniversary. 7 years on, to where we are as a couple, we find that we are grateful to God and God alone. It's 5 more months to the wedding and MAN!! I want to say I AM BLESSED! =)

报告完必！晚安！！

While I am waiting for the fish porridge to .... *phone rings*

HAH! Just finished my fish porridge. So I shall do some stuff while hoping my tummy will recover soon ;)

The wedding bells are ringing in 5 months....! oh no!! And I havent gotten anything done! HELPS!!

I had a pretty disturbing conversation with a young lady the other day. She started the conversation with being worried about not getting attached by the end of 2010. As the conversation went on, she finally asked.... " what should I do to be attracting guys?" "Have I not done enough?" "How can I do more?". Disturbing in the sense of.... "why do we need to do anything to attract anyone? She began to sound like she was desperately looking at being attached by the end of 2010 rather than trying to find Mr Right - for the right reason.

Just. The. Way. You. Are. Shouldnt that how it should be for every couple? To be someone that you are not just to attract guys to get attached just doesnt sit very well with me... infact, it doesnt sit well with me at all!! It's sad to think that there are people out there needin to be love to that point... wad if one day u get tired of being that "someone" who attracted your partner to you? haiz....

COOKIE DOUGH ICE CREAM!!!!

Had ice cream the other day with Shuai at..... *frowns* I forgot where it was. I had a craving for ice cream for too long. Although in the freezer there is.... "Dark Chocolate with Orange" by Haagen Dazs and "Coconut"/"Durian"/"Red Bean"/"Mango" by Potong Ice Cream... I was craving for AUSSIE (please note: Yes I am talking about AUSTRALIA) cold rock ice cream with cookie dough mix-in!! Well... thanks to the numerous Haagen Dazs ice cream outlets we went.... BUT BUT BUT!! the taste of ice cream melting in my mouth, the chewy cookie dough mix-in lingers in my mouth that none of the ice cream I have in my freezer is gonna satisfy that craving!!!

So I met Shuai for dinner at Joan Bowen and she suggested ice cream!! WOHOOO!!! so we went to.... I cant bother to rem the name coz I dun think I am going back ever again. Reminds me of my experience at Holland Cold Rock. Totally dissappointed. I had Durian with Kinder Bueno. She had Chocolate & Hershey with gummy bears. it's not bad the first few mouth.... as I go on with the ice cream... it doesnt taste that fantastic afterall. Oh well... at least there's a free mix-in ^^

I MISS BRISSE AND EVERYTHING THAT'S IN IT!!!!!

Amy better get her wedding plans moving.....

Thought of the day: Park Cleaner

Well, I had a chance to be a park cleaner for an hour? and man! this job is crazy! hahaha the fun part though.... was actually the filming.

I know sweeping aint an easy job - boy I am glad we have people to keep our parks clean! SO all of you out there! DO NOT DIRTY OUR BEAUTIFUL PARKS OKIE?

I miss acting. And I am glad I was given a chance to this morning. I had so much fun! =) laughing about mistakes, re-takes, throwing leaves, leaves thrown on me, making difference facial expressions.

After we are done, we returned the SAPULEELEE to the cleaners at the parks. Uncle asked SJ - "Got new contracts ah?" - intending to mean if we are the new ones that they have hired to sweep the parks -.- hahaha

Like I said! It was totally tiring.... BUT DEFINITELY FUN!!! =)

Here comes the best part.... WAGYU BEEF!!!

Was at the US Ambassador's residence for a US Embassy Thank You Reception. Because General Mills adopted our charity this year - got a grant for us; brought out children out to Peranakan Museum; had lunch with them; ordered Haagen Dazs ice cream (Haagen Dazs is theirs btw); played games; allow us to put our donation box at their outlets. US Embassy has this appreciation reception for all their partners for doing their part for the society. We went as representatives of the Non-profit. And since HJ is on leave on honeymoon - I had to replace her. Well, what can u expect from a reception by the US ambassador? GOOD of coz!

ON THE MENU:

Cold pasta with tomato and olives

Avocado with red beans and corn mixed in olive oil- MY FAVOURITE!

Vietnamese Spring Roll

Cheese and crackers

Vegetables stick with dip

*drum roll* Grilled Wagyu Beef !!!!

and the rest does not even matter to me anymore..... Ha HA hA! I too pai seh I fed myself about only 8 pieces of those bite size grilled beef. YUMMMYZZ.... They are juicy; not to mention how tender they were, bite it and it feels like you sank you teeth into daopok. No daopok is too dry.... tofu. and the juice just flows out and into your mouth. Just right amount of saltyness and spice from the ground pepper. AHHHHHH I should have gone for my 3rd or 4th round.... when I left, there was still tons left... it's never ending! food comes out like they never intended for it to stop. I seriously wonder what they are going to do with those leftover..... wagyu beef...!!! Did I mentioned the free flow of drinks including wine and beer? not that it mattered to me. But WOW! hahaha It's an eye opener.

Tomorrow is FRIDAY!!!! but weekends has not felt like a weekend anymore... AND.... Whenever I take leave... there's always so much work to catch up when I am back.... haiz.... jia you jia you! I can DO it!! tomorrow is another brand NEW day!! =)