Coming to week two... I think I feel much better now... I am not as EMO as I used to be =)

Maybe becoz I think I am acting normal in front of him now. What he said was true... He felt like I was kinda aloof towards everything. I didnt know wad to do and I didnt know what to say.

Finally, I decided to just say whatever I wanna say and do whatever I wanna do lo.

I hav no recollection how that happened... oh well...

Oh I remembered... it was last friday heh =)

I finally realised that I can still love him as him. Not committed doesnt mean I have to try to hate him, not committed doesnt mean I cannot talk to him as if I love him. Not committed doesnt mean I cannot treat him special, not committed doesnt mean I cant even stand close to him, not committed doesnt mean I cannot laugh with him, not committed doesnt mean I cant discuss things with him.

Yes... I still do miss him.

This feelin is mutual... loadsa time, I caught myself wanting to call him "baby" or "darlin"... and there was one I actually did. haha... just hav to get used to it I guess. heh

I actually think that it will be quite cool when we get back together further down the road... can u imagine going thru so much and then finally come one day we will be back together and tt will be for life? it's like giving to a growing plant and by the end of the season, there are fruits to harvest? sorta like tt =)

I wanna work on being a better girlfriend =)

He assured me that he is going to tell his dad even before the 1.5 years is up. knowing that he is ready to fight the battle together with me, made me feel supported and not so lonely. thanx dearie... =)

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We had our sausage party on DEEPAVALI!! it was super fun shopping for all the groceries and deciding what sausage to buy. Thanks for all who turn up and every appearance made the whole thing a blast!! pour Gid had to cut the super big onion and man it was HUGE!! =) THANX to ALL who have contributed, be it garlic or milk or just landing a hand in helping us out! =) my first sausage bun was SUPER good!! like DAMN good!! *open eyes* overall, as I said it was a BLAST!! I want more !! hahaha ENCORE!! hehehe =)

saturday was crazy...

COLD ROCK @ Holland V SUCKS.... it's SOOO not nice compared to the one in Australia... I wanna go back to AUSSIE!! PERI PERI CHIPS.... *drools* my advise is to fly to Australia and check out the Cold Rock there. dun bother spending 7 bucks on some ice cream that has been compromised on the quality... sad... WAY over-priced and low on quality.... then again, I doubt its advisable to fly to Australia to try Cold Rock. HA... ;)