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Have been wanting to blog for the longest time... but each time as I try to type my thoughts out, they start to turn pretty personal... and the thought of bloggin disappear.... I cant share with anyone, no one...

Been feeling really under the weather these few days.... everything has been very quiet... even myself...

Right.

I'm quiet all the time.

Thanx

*cranky-ness shining all the way through*

The other day, I realised I stop reflecting on alot of things in the car now. Most of the times in the car driving are used to "rest". Driving as become so much a part of me that... i think I can drive frm home to work, work to school or church, to Sash's house, back home.... WITH MY EYES CLoSEd.... So, I rest my body.... other than the hand and legs that are so used to the gear changes, stop and go....

No, I am not sleeeping while I am driving.... just... well.. alot of STONING going on

Not Good....

I dowan to be just functioning.... I wanna look forward to each brand new day that the Lord has blessed me with, with a purpose in life, to touch lives and go the extra mile for the people I am with. To bring smiles unto their faces. how then can I do that when I have a hard time getting myself to do it?

WAs sharing with my office cell that.... I dislike the routine part of life.... Thank God for the opportunity to help out at CCSS Charity Golf 2009. Thank God for bringing me outta the routine to Eunos every morning. Yeap! even for the fact that I had to be at Laguna National Golf Club at 7:15. I rushed there like M.A.D and guess wad... I was the earliest... -.-

I need another, let's go for ice cream trip again...... and no... not the let's go... say... next tuesday kinda thing... it's the... let's go NOW kinda thing...

Then again... maybe I need my massage......... GGGGAAAAHHHHHHHHHH

Most of all.... I am craving for Jap food with my bestie.... :/

My blog's dead!!! hahaha yeah... I know... and reason being I have so much to say but dunno where to start...

Oh well.... ALOT.... and I mean A-L-O-T has happened since we came back from Europe... and I guess it's been GOOD! really depends on how u see it actually.... and as usual... I would like to see it positively!! All happened for a reason... and for whatever reason it might be... I guess only God knows.

Another year has been added (and yesssss I know I am OLD... whatever) to my life and I must say that these past few years has really been a journey with God, with Sash, with family, with friends, with ministry and with colleagues. and of coz... life's full of ups AND downs... abd that includes mine... but well... Thank God.... anyway =) Thank YOUS to all those who has wished me a happy/blessed birthday! and thankz so so much to my cell group for giving me the loving 7 dwarfs and card and cake!! =) Feel so LOVED!! and of coz... my loved ones who tried so hard to prepare those candles for me!!! =) so cool! For ONE sec (hahahaha! they will know why) I felt like Mer from GA hahaha

it has come to a point where I cant run and I cant hide... worse still I cant raise my voice... it's just a matter of time when i hv to come straight with it... may God bless me with added grace and added wisdom... I hav a strong feeling that's something He is forcing me to learn....