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Tuesday, November 27, 2007
*__sIlLyGiRl] posted at 4:54 PM | 0 Noticed Me

FIRST of all!! HAPPY STUFF FIRST!! MUAHA!

"Buy a box! Get a box! Be a better person buy a box!

Buy a box! Get a box! Be a better person buy a box!

Buy a box! Get a box! Be a better person buy a box!"


We went to watch "You are special" musicial on sat (17 Nov) and MAN it was good!! to see my favourite children's book turn into life infront of me was undescribable!! I sat there amazed at how a book can be turned into a musical. I sat there and I was like... THIS IS the EXACT thing that God had placed in my heart about creative arts ministry!! turning a book of such content into a play in a church and I can so visualise when the Pastor would step out and gave a short sharing then an altar call for pre-believers!! EXCITED!! but when reality hit me... I know... that is going to take ALOT of hardwork... looking at the current production I have on hand, it pales in comparision.... they are not even in the same league to begin with!! But... it's going to start somewhere.... and since I hav got God with me, who can be against me? =)

I actually tot that if it is going to take me 20 years to reach that "vision" that God have given me... will I still stand by it... its hard... I pray that I have that much perseverance to go thru with that progess... but if that is the plan that God has for me... I will stick by it with the grace of God ;)

Lil fighter told me one day that she had a surprise for me. which, I have absolutely NO idea wad is it... then came friday and GUESS wad?!?! I GOT A BOX!!

Cute RIGHT!?!? INstantly cheered! those who know will know wad does this mean... those who doesnt... TOO BAD!! hahahaha!!

"Buy a box! Get a box! Be a better person buy a box!

Buy a box! Get a box! Be a better person buy a box!

Buy a box! Get a box! Be a better person buy a box!"

then again, was she trying to say that I NEED a box becoz I am not that a GOOD person so I need to be a better one?!?! HUH?!?! hehehehe ;) LOVES SAMANTHA!! so sweet of her! =)

When I stepped into the relationship, it was for good... as much as we are on a break now... to me, he will always be my baby... even with boundaries set... it is up to me who is he too me. NOBODY can stop how I feel towards him... or say that it is not right... or thinks that it is wrong. Even if he doesnt treat me as someone special, it aint going to stop me from feeling how I am feeling. I am true to how I feel and will not compromise to ANYBODY... As much as previously sometimes I would really be angry with him that I would think that we should go on a break... but deep inside, I know that he is the only one that I wanna be with for the rest of my life.

okie.. he is so going to think that I AM CHEESY... *bleah*

SAsh's mum called me this afternn. She just touched down in the morning from her trip to EUROPE!! man I am jealous! Well, this nice lady called me just to find out how I was doing and HOW SWEET IS THAT!! I was beaming with smiles all the while. She was telling me how good the trip was and how she has enjoyed herself and how cold it was and how I should make a trip there too when I AM YOUNG. hahaha hmmmmm HE HE HE HE feeling loved =)

the 3 carehuts had a combined Playback theatre workshop yesterday. One girl from another carehut was sharing with the teacher-in-charge of that particular carehut that... "Eunos carehut's students are so well-behaved. They ask Aunty Amy for permission for everything. And they all listen to her". When my colleague tot me that, I instantly beamed. I am so proud of my kids =) Before that, my supervisor also did mentioned to me that among all the 3 carehuts, Eunos kids are generally the better ones, they basically do what is told to them by the teachers. At first, I dun think so, coz when I went to the interview, I was told that this center is generally harder to managed as there are more boys. Well, I am glad that God intervene in the center =)



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Monday, November 12, 2007
*__sIlLyGiRl] posted at 8:01 AM | 0 Noticed Me

Coming to week two... I think I feel much better now... I am not as EMO as I used to be =)

Maybe becoz I think I am acting normal in front of him now. What he said was true... He felt like I was kinda aloof towards everything. I didnt know wad to do and I didnt know what to say.

Finally, I decided to just say whatever I wanna say and do whatever I wanna do lo.

I hav no recollection how that happened... oh well...

Oh I remembered... it was last friday heh =)

I finally realised that I can still love him as him. Not committed doesnt mean I have to try to hate him, not committed doesnt mean I cannot talk to him as if I love him. Not committed doesnt mean I cannot treat him special, not committed doesnt mean I cant even stand close to him, not committed doesnt mean I cannot laugh with him, not committed doesnt mean I cant discuss things with him.

Yes... I still do miss him.

This feelin is mutual... loadsa time, I caught myself wanting to call him "baby" or "darlin"... and there was one I actually did. haha... just hav to get used to it I guess. heh

I actually think that it will be quite cool when we get back together further down the road... can u imagine going thru so much and then finally come one day we will be back together and tt will be for life? it's like giving to a growing plant and by the end of the season, there are fruits to harvest? sorta like tt =)

I wanna work on being a better girlfriend =)

He assured me that he is going to tell his dad even before the 1.5 years is up. knowing that he is ready to fight the battle together with me, made me feel supported and not so lonely. thanx dearie... =)

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We had our sausage party on DEEPAVALI!! it was super fun shopping for all the groceries and deciding what sausage to buy. Thanks for all who turn up and every appearance made the whole thing a blast!! pour Gid had to cut the super big onion and man it was HUGE!! =) THANX to ALL who have contributed, be it garlic or milk or just landing a hand in helping us out! =) my first sausage bun was SUPER good!! like DAMN good!! *open eyes* overall, as I said it was a BLAST!! I want more !! hahaha ENCORE!! hehehe =)

saturday was crazy...

COLD ROCK @ Holland V SUCKS.... it's SOOO not nice compared to the one in Australia... I wanna go back to AUSSIE!! PERI PERI CHIPS.... *drools* my advise is to fly to Australia and check out the Cold Rock there. dun bother spending 7 bucks on some ice cream that has been compromised on the quality... sad... WAY over-priced and low on quality.... then again, I doubt its advisable to fly to Australia to try Cold Rock. HA... ;)

Wednesday, November 7, 2007
*__sIlLyGiRl] posted at 9:58 AM | 0 Noticed Me

Its been a week now and tears well up whenever it gets later in the night... as I quieten down my thoughts...

I could no longer call u like how I would use to...

I could no longer sms u like how I would always do...

I could barely open my eyes in the morning for the pass few days...

I miss the times we went rollerblading and runnin together...

I miss the times we held hands and walk the streets...

I miss the times I lay my head on ur shoulders...

I miss the times you piggy back me on your back...

I miss the times you made my heart melt...

I miss the times you would put ur finger in my mouth and pull it one side... making me look stupid and silly...

I miss the times we seat together in church...

I miss the times I hear you laugh at the dumbest thing I could ever do...

I miss the times when you would look at me and I would know that you wanna say you love me...

I happen to come across some photos in photobucket.com... photos we took when you came over and visit me in Brisbane... the photos we took in Surfer's paradise outside a shop while waiting for Josh to browse his stuff...

I know this is not going to be forever... this season came... and winter is going to pass... but nevertheless... wo de xin hao tong... hao tong hao tong...

Monday, November 5, 2007
*__sIlLyGiRl] posted at 5:19 AM | 0 Noticed Me

Current location : Maccas at Lido

Sunday, November 4, 2007
*__sIlLyGiRl] posted at 8:14 AM | 0 Noticed Me


As I was just trying to immerse myself in His presence... asking Him to let me draw close to Him... He gave me a vision similar to this... with His almighty hand He stretched out... waiting for me to reach out and grab that hand...

I wanna grab Your hand and jump onto Your hand and seat in Your embrace.... My Abba Father...

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when I see people running along the streets... I think about you...
when I see someone wearing All Blacks Jersey... I think about you...
when I see my mobile phone... I think about you...
when I go online... I think about you...
when I wear my watch... I think about you...
when I hang out with the peeps... I think about you...
when I finally see you... I actually miss you...

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I do not understand.... but....

the voice of truth says "This is for My glory"

Thursday, November 1, 2007
*__sIlLyGiRl] posted at 11:57 PM | 0 Noticed Me

Draw me close to You
Never let me go
I lay it all down again
To hear You say that I'm Your friend
You are my desire
No one else will do
Cause no one else can take Your place
To feel the warmth of Your embrace
Help me find the way
That brings me back to You

I couldnt hold it back anymore... before our mini devotion started... I stood there and I was like...

Big Daddy... Help... I am struggling to worship You... How I supposed to praise You? I dont want to stand here and be a hyprocrite...

Help me find the way that bring me back to You...

I wanna lay back against You in Your embrace... But yet I struggle to worship You... praise You for all that You've done...

help me find the way that bring me back to You...

I couldnt take it that I had to leave... I couldnt stay out too long so I went back in....

"to do, so we magnify You..."
"it is only for Your glory..."

I will never be able to deny that You have been pretty prompt on whatever question that I asked You and it's amazing... and I just wanna run away and spend time with You... and You alone
*__sIlLyGiRl] posted at 8:41 AM | 0 Noticed Me

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