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Monday, June 2, 2008
*__sIlLyGiRl] posted at 7:49 AM

okie, one thing at a time =)

finally the one week of internet fast is over!! *Phew*
So wad did I get outta it? Well, I spent more time on my books!! okie, I might just do it again some time, but for now, I AM online! hahaha

Desaru trip was AWESOME!! hahaha yes yes for more info pls read SAM or DEBZ blog, I realised that they blogged about the same thing and I dowan to blog abt it the third time! hahaha but all I can say is that I truely enjoyed the trip! it was fun fun fun!! and guess wad?! the FUN-NEST part was of coz... my favourite OWLs. SO CUte and I was telling Same that I wanna bring it home!! It's one of those things, which I would really love to have one at home, that would greet me after a hard day's work, with it's darn retarded face, so I get cheered up INSTANTLY!! Of coz, i dun get the joy outta their misery but it's just that they are SO CUUTE! like a Sha Pei dog, Oh my word... I really really loNG to have that Owl!! it was well... LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT! HAHAHa that was the highlight of the trip! and not forgetting Same's MTV recording! Gosh... it was HILARIOUS!! she was suddenly SO HIGH! and it was GREAT!! hopefully I can get the pictures and video up soon!!

I know it can be painful when it comes to having someone whom u are close to leave u... I think I can sorta understand where u are at... just be strong... I dunno wad else to say.. u gotta ask God for strength and u gotta do it urself... it's hard... but never impossible... stay strong! and continue to rock on! hahaha =) Love yah! rem, ur bro and I will still be around ;) and of coz... many others too =)

I wanted to tell you... that it hurts alot... it was practically heartbreaking... to see things like this... I wanted to share with you the feeling and struggle that I have... but I didnt get a chance too... as much as yes... I may sound angry and pissed when I shared those stuff with u... but deep inside... it was more of a heart break than anything else... basically... I felt like a shepherd losing one of his sheep... I cant and dowan to say anything now... it feels like words bouncing off the wall... or return to me in a totally different meaning... I cried to Big Daddy to give me strength... I just refuse to give up...

Sunday's second service was powerful! message was really good! I really like how the way the preacher gave a brief overview of the context of what he was preaching abt! great sermon! was glad that I was there =) 

I asked Daddy (with a capital "D") why? why does my heart hurt so bad? why doesnt the words get through? why do they have to be interpreted wrongly? why am I not understood? why are my words heared but not listened? Suddenly, like a thunder... it came... "So u know how I feel now?" All of a sudden, I tot I could feel the heartbreak that my heavenly Father would feel (ok, maybe not as intense) when His precious children refuse to listen to Him... Many a times, we claim that "God doesnt speak to me"... OUCH.. I felt tht... but honestly... out of the many times, how many of it is becoz WE dun listen? and we push the blame to God and say HE doesnt speak... OUCH.... I felt tt again.... Truth is, He loves all His children and He long to speak to every single one of them... question is... are we CONNECTED with Him...?

"I so wanna grow saggy and old with you... travel the world... sharing the gospel... taking the message of redemption to the ends of this earth... *blank* *blank* and leave a legacy... ALL WITH YOU. A GOOD legacy in Jesus Name & By His Grace! " 

I was looking through some pictures and I found this....

Then I realised that was about a year ago... time flies... I remembered the times we spent on the bus... that only one time we took a walk to the beach and sat there to wait for sunrise... the pictures we took... the meal times when we sat together... the times we sat together during service... the 44,000 children... the walks to the room... that was a year ago and so many things happened since... we are heading to youth camp once again this year... how different is it going to be...? I wonder wad awaits us there... 

Thanx for the prayers today! I mean.. it was so sweet of ALL of u!! =) *so loved* hehehe

Okie! Desaru's pictures and MTV are uploaded to my computer! but I am still figuring out how to do this rite... so... pictures and video next time!! meanwhile... here's a sneak peek =)

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