So Many things happened I dunno where to start!! hehehe U guys are so going to... ermmm.. feel like u are readin several blogs in this ONE post. hahaha
He got punished... I dunno why he as punished, but he was... I didnt give that punishment but I was the only one there to enforce it. So he had to mop the floor instead of writing many many lines. Sometimes I really think that writing lines can be so wasteful as I am sure many of them dun remember wad they write anywayz... putting them on time outs can be very distressing for the hyper active ones as it is not their make up to sit still for a period of time like 20 mins or so. thus, we allow them to clean the center as a form of punishment some of the times. the mop is twice his height an prolly weigh the same as him, I watched him mopped the center. He prolly aint going to mop it clean as it looked like just wetting the floor with the mop more than really mopping the floor clean. But I still let him do it anyway. After he was done, I took over and I started mopping the floor as its the weekend and I want to keep the place clean before the week end starts. Then he innocently asked me... "aunty Amy, why do u still have to clean it?" something struck me... yah... actually... I dont need him to mop the floor so that its clean... I can do it myself and I can fairly say that it will be cleaner... but... I still make sure he does it. on top of it being a punishment... it was also to teach him that there is always a consequence to the things he does. to teach him how to mop the floor (some of these kids has nv touched a mop before) as part of a life skill. but come to think about it... I dun hv to... then I got this... isnt this the same with God and us? He can do all the things by words that He speak, just like how he spoke life into everything on earth. just like how he spoke light into day. He can save all the souls by His power. why does He need us?? key thing here is... HE DOESNT!! He doesnt need us to do things for Him, in fact, whatever we do pales in comparison the things HE CAN accomplish! But in the midst of then things we do, we learn how to rely on Him for strength, it builds our character, it teaches us and mould us into what He want us to be. AMAZING!! I marvelled at how He can remind me and comfort me about HOW GREAT MY BIG DADDY IS even in the daily things in my work! THANK U!! =D
"Catching a fresh vision of God" I realised that, that was what I experienced the day before this sermon was preached. I have probably stand in front of those flags many many times. not once... not twice.. not even 10 times.. its MORE than that. But only things like... hey.. how come there's a turkey in the flag? is it a turkish flag? or... hey how come the label looks different, some of the paper look more yellow then the rest... or... haiz... those cloths... same position, same order... or.... they are simply non-existent to me most of the times. Yesterday during music prac... I looked at the stars on our national flag and my focuz drew back and there was the crescent... and my vision drew backwards further and I saw the whole row of flags... "All the nations will come and bow down before Me...." WOW!! Can u just imagine?! ALL the nations... not one, not two.. not only the Christian ones... not only the ones with more Christians in their demographic... but ALL... every single nation will come before Him. I marvelled! at His magnificent and His Majesty! =D *busk in God* =D
HAHAHA!! I have been spending alot of time outside what I could have concentrate on. mostly with SHUAI!!! MUAHAHAHa!! HAPPY la!!! =) like for Christmas and stuff... for school's performance etc etc etc! I am happy and embracing the things that God has placed in my hands right now and I am confident in Him to bring me through it all. Satan has no stronghold over God's children! *BLEAH BLEAH BLEAH* Let's see who has the last laugh. MUAHAHA okie... I sound really weird.
But we are on this LOVE LANGUAGE CRAZE right now, which was funny! haha
U said WE didnt try hard enough that was why... but I am proofing to you I CAN DO IT anyhow... the balls are now on UR COURT... I'll probably wait... I will wait til you are ready... but at the mean time... while waiting... if there's someone who can give me what I want from you, passes by... will I...? I dunno
Today SAm and I wore the exact same colour!!! LIME GREEN!! it has the colour of... lime sherbet! NICE!! so delicious I can eat!!! MUAHAHA!! then.. it was... SAME SAME!! but DIFFERENT!! hehehehe =) SO COOL CAN!!! =)
It was so FUN at Miss CLarity this evening! =) so glad to have Debz back =) the fellowship, the mud ooozz, the rings, the game HAHAHA the bet!! MUAHAHA!! SHuAI has no more say about me being OLD! NEH NEH NI BOO BOO hahaha
BIPOLAR BIPOLAR BIPOLAR BIPOLAR BIPOLAR BIPOLAR BIPOLAR BIPOLAR!!!
Ups and downs Ups and Downs... uPs and dOwNs...!!!
the insecurities are setting in... did he not do it becoz he just wanna drag this on? maybe he isnt serious abt telling anyway... could he be so afraid that he is willing to put this aside for now? but why? why doesnt he has the courage to do so? why does he keep confessing that it is doom for sure? is he even serious about it at all...? mountains of questions starts pilling up.... why dont I get the kind of security other girls get...? Why do I feel like I am fighting against odds on my own...?
I stop fighting already... I stopped... I am not going to take that first step again... ever... coz I am tired... really dead beat from every aspect of my life right now... that I dowanna care about this anymore... if it dies... then let it be...
AHHHH!!! MONDAY!!! was like a gift from GOD! weather was SOOOOO GOOOD!! PERFECT to my liking! went to sentosa and just BUM!! like literally BUMMED!!! like slum into the beach tanning chair and stayed there for the entire 7 hrs!! hahaha! so cool can?!?! My happiest day in like so many months!!! nothing cheers me up more than seeing God rise the sun for me, clear the sky to reveal those blue background that He created!! the clouds that formed by His hands!! marvelled marvelled!!! I knw u guys think I am crazy for tt!! but thats how I relax myself and recharge for the many things ahead!! and I THANK GOD!!!! =) MUAHAHA!! AND I LOVE!!!! although you could have 2 cooked lobster by the end of the day =)
Tuesday rehearsal was SO FUN!!!! FUN FUN FUN FUN!!! though tired but FUN!!! AWESOMELY FUN!!! LIKE REALLY!!!! God was there once again! MARVELLED!!! so strong!! Again again!!!
The same piece of news can bring about two very extreme reactions. after all... what she thinks still matters to me alot... maybe that was why it hurt me so bad to see that reaction... I am really trying to understand why she reacted the way she did. I remembered her telling me that I dont share alot of things with her... but yet when I did... I wish I havent done it... Under my blanket, I told God... if that is where He wants me to be for this period of time... let me face all prosecutions with His strength... let me overcome any temptations with His power... let me love those who do not understand with His love...
Staff devotion was powerful! It's not a question of, "Lord, why did u place me here?" BUT "Lord, what do u want me to do while I am here."
YAY!! I got clearance to attend rehearsal!! Thank God!! =)
Okie... We had our national day meeting today and loadsa brain cells were gone!! Offered to the Lord! hahaha loadsa laughter and fun =) but we are really running tight! but surprising we can still work with 5 smiles!! =) alot of datelines to meet!! but alot not our problem!! hahahahaha
I dowan to let the reaction affect the way I give to the Lord... really dowan to!!
I wanna go back to that couch... staring outta that window... in that beautiful room.. looking out at that serene surrounding... "Hosanna" playing in the background... suddenly.... it felt like time just stopped for that 20 mins or so... Just me and Big Daddy... It was so still I dunno how to describe... so peaceful... the busyness of life.... the desire to just slp 15 mins more has robbed away times like this with Big Daddy... how many times have we rush through even our quiet times with God? how many times have we rush through our prayer list as fast as we can so that we can get it over and done with? I treasure moments like this with Big Daddy... its like... just me and Him and nothing else... and I can marvel at His majesty and love and grace and creation and His very presence... It was such an intense quality time... If only we havent had to go for breakfast and check out, I would hv just stayed there longer
I said "Yes" and I felt so peaceful. I know the many things that are going to be ahead, the tough nights, and sleepy mornings... leisure being robbed away... beach bum no more... rising up to alot more things... still... after I said yes... there was this peace... despite the fact that it wasnt during the peaceful period that I had to made this decision... somehow, I know.. God is there and will be there. I hold on to the fact that He who had made me knows His every plans for me and has so much bigger things install for me
Tuesday!!! went for the first rehearsal for the creative performance for the 8th Sept APTA conference in TCC. YAAAAAYYY!!! It was SOOOOO fun!!! doing drama again!!! LALAlALALA HAIYAH!! u hav NOO... ABSOLUTELY NO idea how excited I am!! =) and how much fun we had last night! LALALALALALA =) Despite of everything, God was there, which was SO COOL!! I mean.... like for real.... I can feel His presence. and the atmosphere there is just different. uplifting! even though everyone's tired from a day of activities. well... at least, I am doing it for Him and I am enjoying it!! mUAhAhAHa! *dances around in excitement* cant wait cant wait for the next rehearsal!! =)
was just doo doo doo doo doo-ing in the office today after staff devotion, in the tune of "deck the halls". Haw Jia ask whether it was abit too early hehehee then I went on to photocopy some worksheets for the children, went back to Haw Jia's desk and I SIGHed a big one... then she laughed... one min I was doo doo doo doo doo-ing the other min I was sighing... then I said... BIPOLAR.... hahahaha ooh my word.. I think I really am BIPOLAR!! hehehehe
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