Sunday, January 27, 2008
*__sIlLyGiRl] posted at 8:08 AM
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I have no idea why I end up at blogger. hahaha I have nothing to blog about cept that my mind has been blank the whole day. maybe perhaps other than Psalm 15.
Supposed to memorise it with Samantha two weeks back. HAhaha
I am not giving up. I just needed some time to pull back. pull myself back from jumping into a roar.
It keep coming back to me... If God didnt want this to happen... He would have put everything in this path to keep it from happening. but the fact that it happened in this way... there must be something to get out from... and know wad? He aint letting go til we learn what we have to learn... only to become more like how He wans us to be.
For probably the thousandth tme, I wondered what advice Professor von Kempem would have given me if he were still alive. I remembered that once, when I became frustrated that my fingers were not long enough to reach a certain extension, my frail teacher edged forward on his hard pine chair until I was afraid he would slide right off. "Every musician," he said as if reciting a prayer, "discovers that God has given him faulty equipment. That's where the difference between an ordinary musician and a great artist lies - how they face their shortcomings." - Mark Salzman, The Soloist
strangely I saw a different perspective of what Paul said about breaking that wall... keep going at it til it softens... Amazing... and talk about going to feel really uncomfortable... this year... is going to be a great year... LEVEL UP!
Daddy, may I learn these fast and well... so that I wont have to go thru them again!!
Sunday, January 20, 2008
*__sIlLyGiRl] posted at 5:51 AM
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Just let me say
How much I love You
Let me speak of Your mercy and grace
Just let me live
In the shadow of Your beauty
Let me see You face to face
and the earth will shake
as Your word goes forth
And the heavens
can tremble and fall
but let me say how much I love You
O my Savior, my Lord and Friend
Just let me hear
Your finest whispers
As You gently call my name
And let me see
Your power and Your glory
Let me feel Your spirit's flame
Let me find You in the desert
'Til this sand is holy ground
And I am found completely surrendered
To You, my Lord and Friend
So let me say
how much I love You
With all my heart I long for You
For I am caught
in the passion of knowing
This endless love
I've found in You
And the depth of grace, the forgiveness found
To be called a child of God
Just makes me say
How much I love You
O my Savior, my Lord and FriendAnd the depth of grace, the forgiveness found
To be called a child of GodJust makes me say
How much I love You
O my Savior, my Lord and Friend
When I started singing this song during altar this morning... My glance just didnt know for what reason went to him. I saw the way he sang to this song... "Just let me say how much I love You..." I actually saw Big Daddy's glory all over that face that seem so frail... but it's all strengthened by His glory... I couldnt hold back any emotions and I just wanna break down. I was controlling really hard not to break down on stage and tried to sing. As I sang to the words... I couldnt help but feel so ashamed of myself... who am I to complaint about my life and still sometimes struggle to worship and praise Him... yet there he is... sitting there, singing this song from his heart and know that He is his Healer... when wad is visible doesnt seem to include "healing" in it's dictionary... "Just makes say how much I love You, O my Savior, my Lord and Friend."
Big Daddy... thanx for letting me see what I saw today... it was a precious lesson learnt... thru someone's life... You showed yourself and taught me something so awesome and precious... I will always rem that sight of Your glory over him...
Friday, January 18, 2008
*__sIlLyGiRl] posted at 10:04 AM
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I still love chocolate brownie...
Although the chocolate brownie did not turn out as how the recipe put it... I still love chocolate brownie...
Although I think the chocolate brownie recipe still need some adjusting... I still love chocolate brownie...
Although chocolate brownie isnt exactly chocolate brownie YET... I still love chocolate brownie...
Chocolate brownie need some work, I am sure the Baker will know wad adjustment to make to make sure that it will make it to the store
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Apple crumble's crust seems to crumble too much.
I dunno how to start eating the apple crumble...
should I start with the apple fillings? should I start with the crust?
should I start from the back? or should I start from the front?
Should I have it with ice cream? or just plain apple crumble?
I know the Baker is at work with the high-crumble-tendency apple crumble crust. I just hope that the crust stays together the next time it gets cut up.
I love apple crumble and I dont wanna see it crumble...
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Tiramisu seems abit too soft these days...
maybe it has been left out on the table for too long.
there isnt any cold air that could surround it and help it stay together.
I hope the Baker will get the refrigerator repaired soon. cold air is needed by the tiramisu...
I love tiramisu too and I hope that the tiramisu will let the surrounding cold air will firm it up. and not to rely only on the refrigerator.
The Baker is needed everywhere. And I know the Baker can handle it =)
HAHAHA!~ What I wrote actually gave me an idea for something. But we will see how that's gonna work out ;)
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"This year, you will go up a notch higher"
"You are going to get uncomfortable" - (not tt I am already not)
"You have to persevere and slowly move that wall"
"Becareful and guard urself" - (this is really sccary!!)
BIG DADDY!!!! *cling on to Him*
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
*__sIlLyGiRl] posted at 6:40 AM
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YAY-ness!! as my sis would have put it.
Satisfied one more craving. STEAMBOAT!
Had a great time with the girls on sunday nite at COCA steamboat. I hope shuai knows wad COCA Steamboat now =)
I almost tot I brought one hungry ghost out to the steamboat that night... U'd be amazed at the rate and amount that hungry ghost is eating. She ate 2 plates of pig's liver by herself... followed on by 2 plates of sliced beef. she just kept whacking and whacking that pig's liver and sliced beef... hungry ghost she is. Shuai doesnt eat piggy stuff... so guess who that hungry ghost is -_-
Had fun telling them about my massage experience, glad to see them laugh after all the food and everyone was getting slpy... hahaha. overall... it was fun at steamboat!! =) YAY!
Aunty called that day and she said alot of stuff... before that I asked if it was going to be a sex tok... since reading deborah's blog hahaha I was just kidding. I knew she would take some time and I wanted to give her my full attention... I settled the kids and went out of CareHut for awhile. Called her and she called back after. I was moved to tears hearing her say all the things that she had to say. It wasnt anywhere near sex talk... in fact... I felt really loved by her. I tot about the lunch she would pack for me, the smiles that she would give even when she's across the sanctuary, the look she would always give when she was about to leave, the hugs that she gives. To hear her say that she's praying for me and my call means alot to her, I couldnt hold back any tears... She's the kind of mother I would love to have, a mother that would pray for her daughter, a mother that supports her daughter's call of God. I know my mum loves me too, its just a different way. hmmm about that, aren't I just so blessed to have 2 mother's love? HEHEE to hear that she treat me like her very own... I was just... tearing.
And silly her still thought that I would be offended by her concern
Well... I just have to say it here... I LOVE YOU AUNTY!! ;) u have no idea how blessed I am with ur love to me ;) and NO.. i am not offended AT ALL ;) not like she is ever going to read my blog.. oh well...! =)
Saturday, January 12, 2008
*__sIlLyGiRl] posted at 6:25 AM
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OKie!
Satisfy-ED my craving for frog leg JooK =) Would have loved to go down and eat Dao Huey and then further gone some more for herbal jelly. But... tummy too small... nevertheless... Jook was GOOODD!! =)
heartmelt moment.
looking for an empty space on the paper, she took the marker pen in her hand and gone on to draw... ONE stroke.
Darlyn: Jie Jie Amy!
i didnt had any chance to speak, she carried on to draw another stroke
Darlyn: Kor Kor Sashi!
*heartmelt*
she carried on drawing strokes naming them one by one saying Kor kor, to Jie Jie, to Daddy to Mummy, to Grandad to Grandma...
However, in my mind, I was amazed at the fact that she drew her "Kor Kor Sashi" after she drew her "Jie Jie Amy"
At one moment, she drew her Kor Kor Sashi and Jie Jie Amy side by side and said, Kor Kor Sashi and Jie Jie Amy.
*heartmelt*
How in the world did she relate Jie Jie Amy to Kor Kor Sashi. In my mind, it felt like as if she knew... that Kor Kor Sashi and Jie Jie Amy are together. That she drew them together. She didnt name any other people except her own family members. Its truly amazing to what extend that kids, even her age, can see the world around them.
was out with YY the other day and I was surprised at my own reaction to what she posted to me. I couldnt have communicated what was on my mine clearer than that. It felt like I have rehearsed it one thousand and one times. Through the ability that I have sharing with her, God reminded me of my calling, my first love, my first burning passion, my first dream... the journey that I went through, the breaking, the moulding and the burning furnace... the things that He is capable to do in my life, the providence, the guidance, the wisdom...
At the end, she could see that I knew exactly what I want in my life and have plans for at least til 2009 and she was happy for me. =)
I cannot say that I have reached there yet, but I know and I hold on to the fact that God will bring me there.
Thanx YY!! And please slap me and remind me of what I have shared with you the other day if I ever come crying to u one day. U are like... my best friend ever! =) *hugz* And I am willing to walk with u thru what u are going thru. though I may not be the best one to seek advice in. I am always here. just needa give me a few missed calls. HEH!! =P
It was a small talk, but in that, I knew... that it's never going to take place til God thinks I am ready. He has been preparing me for it. making me learn over and over again if I didnt get it... if He didnt think I was "fit" enough to pass. making me learn new things. It's amazing... the things and situations He brings me through to make me learn SPECIFIC things. It can never be clearer that they are the learning points He wants to be learn. More and more clearly, I know, this is just a stepping stone for greater things He has in my life. I just have to prepare myself to be ready for it.
Same for us, I am certain there are alot of things that God wants us to learn in this period of our lives. What his mum shared with him hit me again today... WE BOTH have a calling in our lives. BOTH, not just me... not just him... BOTH of us. Not that I do not ALREADY know that... just that it hit me again today. *looks up at Big Daddy* And somehow, I am certain, that as much as I wish I can say "I do" earlier... I am not going to until we both are ready, in whatever way that God wants us to be ready... for God, for ourselves, for each other... so that in our calling... we glorify no one else but Him.
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
*__sIlLyGiRl] posted at 8:10 AM
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was thinking abt food that night and.... i got ONE WHOLE LIST of cRAVINGS
1. White pepper crab from NoSIgnBoard - oooOoooOo BODY parts PLEASE!! =)
2. Frog legs JooK from Geylang
3. Hokkien mee from Geylang
4. Beef hor fun from Geylang
5. Durians by the streets from Geylang
6. Sambal KangKong
7. Statchy statchy oyster egg
8. Mushroom soup
9. French fries! - from school! hahaha
10. something.... SPECIAL... hehehe
OKIE... my list of cravings. if only my tummy can stomach all that in one day then I will satisfy my cravings in one meal!! maybe... find some tablet thingy tt works =)
that phone call was.... very special to me.
that comment to my colleague was even more special *BEAMS*
and 9th Jan is a special day. I remembered wad happened 3 years ago =)
I WANT THAT SWIMMING POOL!!! Went to Yio Chu Kang area to see the houses there and me and Shuai saw one damn nice house for rent and it was opened so we went in there and peek!! hehehe I LOVE THE SWIMMING POOL!! DADDY I WANT!! hahaha *loves the swimming pool!!**
on the less brighter note... I kept thinking abt 12th Jan and I couldnt get to slp last nite... should I or should I not? Should I keep quiet or make my point?? hmmmm....
Saturday, January 5, 2008
*__sIlLyGiRl] posted at 5:30 AM
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