I know I screwed up big time... the tear that wil be difficult to mend. but because of how valuable I see it... I am going to work my way to mend it as far as God enables me too. It was a lesson learnt and I pray that this is not going to burn it, but bridged it so we can go a level up. I pray... God be my strength and my wisdom...

I know it is a gift... many people has commented it to me before. But I think I have misuse this gift... or should I say... I think I have not used it correctly, tactfully...

I remembered the first time I got accused of using it... I got really hurt...

I remember all the times I said them out... and felt really worried... how are we supposed to be as one if this happens all the time...

I remember the times I got misunderstood as shooting you down when I dun even meant it as that... How can I continue to guide and be a blessing if I am misunderstood as that...?

I really needa use it correctly... I have a gift. I just needa find a method to correctly channel it out to people around me...

people who are close to me...

OKIE! Happy stuff!

SUNDAY'S Group outing! =) We went opp to have Char Siew Rice for lunch first. yesh.. as weird as it is to have Char Siew Rice for a grp outing... our two dear friends (Janice and Annika) havent had the chance to eat there before. SO... HEY! come on we did a good thing for bringing them to somewhere that all ELIMITES should at least go once in their lifetime in Elim. haha to get across for the 9 girls was scary!! and guess wad... I think Becca did a good job leading us over to the char siew rice place. then we got stuck in the shop before it started pouring real badly. after some wait, the rain lightened, we had to cross the road again and we tried a few times but nobody dare to just take that step forward and go for it!! hahaha after feeling that it is really safe to cross... we made it over to the other side. and all the time.. it was raining lightly hahahah after, we trained to Clarke Quay together!!! hahaha the train was arriving and we were running down the stairs and some of them were IN the train already, but we realised that Chin Wei was stuck in the gantry because her card couldnt work... -_- so we waited for the next one. haha the next two hours spent in Settler's was just fun. although at the beginning we had a tough time trying to find some retarded games, we managed to get on it and just had fuN! =) with the retarded games. hahaha at the end of it... Sarah said... "We should come again!" and she added... "but this is our last group outing." as hard as it was... I assured them tt it was okie, we can still go out together as friends. yeap.. our first and last group outing... I have grown to really love them as individual and I am really gonna miss them!!

I was over at Becca's place yesterday to grab back my belt that that girl had conveniently took it with her after sunday's outing. stayed over for about an hour and was watching Sam pack her cupboard and was just chilling with them. It was kinda cool! reminds me of the time I would just bunk over at my friend's place in Brissie. I miss that totally...

I had a weird dream the other night. I dreamt of Genesis. not the first book of the Bible, but my good friend from Brissie. in my dreams.. I saw him in a shopping mall... and guess wad the saddest thing was...? we were eye to eye and he was talking to me but he couldnt recognise me... how horrific is that?!?! yesh.. HORRIFIC... I think I would cry if this really happens... I miss all of them so much... *bleah*