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Tuesday, June 17, 2008
*__sIlLyGiRl] posted at 11:20 PM

I saw u standing there waiting for ur turn and tt sight pains me... I wanted to hug u then but I tot I'd wait til you were done. Many tots that came thru didnt stop me from doing what I felt I just wanna do. It doesnt really matter, all I wanted to let u knw was that I still do care alot about u. the cry that u let out when I whisper those three words put me to tears. It was as if u hv been waiting for me to say that again to u and I finally did. I dunno if u have any idea how much it pains me seeing u going thru all these. Honestly, I dowan to over promise and under-deliver. I am glad that I did wad I did. I am glad we spent some time together during those 4 days. I am glad we gave this and each other one more try tt nite at vivo. I am glad u are trying to take baby steps towards something bigger in ur life. I am ... just... GLAD.

Those 2 sentences pierced right thru my heart, hearing them coming outta ur mouth. I dun think I have said things like that to u... about my honest tots that u arent prepared for wad it has to take. "Maybe, u just are not prepared for it." Did it hurt? OF COZ!! Am I going let it get to me... I dun think so! I found my assurance in God when I laid down in bed and again in my morning drive to work. Who can say that he/she can be utterly prepared for God's will in his/her life? there are always something to work on in our journey towards our destiny. there will always be bumps and humps along the way, there will always be time when u are down and cant seem to get it rite. Are u prepared for it? Maybe I am prepared to see it coming. but unless the rubber meets the road, nobody can say that they are 100% prepared for it. 

It doesnt matter if u honestly think that I m not prepared for it. first of all, I think there was alot of misunderstanding and miscommunication that lead to that.. 

but more importantly, I found my assurance in God that He will put me thru bumps and humps to make sure I get it rite someday and that He will not give me something that He knows I cant handle. I found comfort, acceptance and love in Him... There will always be a chance that man will disappoint you... but God's love for His people is everlasting. =)

So am I prepared? *grins*

still working on it! 

and ..... I bet it's the same for YOU too ;)
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